fake love

My heart has been trampled by your foot. Left on the ground to whiter and wash away, my dearest, the love might waste away but my pain? Wont wash away. Roses my dear, die and decompose but they still have and had thorns the whole of their life, your coldness just makes me warmer and warmer and the heat that radiates from my body melts all the fake shit you said. Fake. The words you said, the songs you wrote, the compliments the calls the chats we had. Fake. But its okay, Thats who you are I guess. I paused for you, I surrendered my heart to you, my time to you, my blade. All to you, you are the reason stainless steel sits by my bedside, the reason I cry myself to sleep. I put on this fucking act, short skirts and tight shorts for you. All for you, my attempts have all become shortcomings a hit and miss. But dearest, fake love and infatuation is all you. My real emotions were all just your toys, my heart was your monopoly board, roll the dice love. But oh well, I guess thats all just you. It's okay I say I don't give a fuck but you are on my mind every hour, the perplexity of your mind vexing me. I give a fuck. But I guess thats love these days. The gashes In my wrist are just a way to get rid of you, but not r even the deepest gashes will get rid of you, I will cut deeper and deeper and bleed my heart out to quench the ravenous bloodthirsty and soulless heart you carry behind your rib-cage. Oh well. Its all on you my dearest. Roses still have thorns. ~The one that got away.

I wrote that in the car on the way home... Have you ever cut so deep it started dripping on the floor for over 10 minutes, so deep you could feel the life suck out of your body, so deep your head began to cheI did, and why? because Im hurt, Im sick and iredof fake love, I dont wanna be fooled or tricked, I want love.

Update... 27 mayy

shes all of a sudden caring about me but the minute we get to school she avoids me ugh im offically done with this